it's been more than a year since I wrote you a letter my dear, but it doesn't mean i forgot about you. i am sorry if mommy was too busy to write you a note and so, here i am again....It seems like yesterday that I brought you home from the hospital, and now you are my little man. I was very nervous at the prospect of being first time mother, or should I say, single parent. It did not strike me until you arrived - and then it hits me.
It took a while for me to come to terms with the fact that I was a mother and was going to be one forever. But today after two years of looking back, I cannot help but smile. It is a feeling of fulfillment beyond words. Although I am still not sure if I am a great mother, I feel that I have done some justice to the role.
Every milestone of yours was a personal victory for me. Your first smile, your first word, your first step.... I was just amazed and once again overwhelmed at what a little miracle you are.
As years passed by, things started to get very challenging. Sometimes I found myself in very difficult situations; the mess you made, the tantrums you threw, and the other millions of naughty things you did really stressed me out. I have agonized over many of the decisions I had to make when it came to discipline. I had many arguments with your lolo and lola but in time we learned to parent as a team. We still have our differences of opinion but we learned to listen to each other.
Now I learned to take things in my stride and deal with them with a calm mind. One thing that helped me tremendously through the toughest times was your smile - that 1000 watt glow made me forget everything and realize it was all worth it. Two years after you made your entrance into my life hasn't been the same, you are by far my biggest source of joy and my biggest energy drain. you keep me going, you keep me laughing, you keep me wanting to live each and everyday.
We live our life in phases. When one ends, another begins. Change is constant and life is short. So seize the moment and live life to the fullest, have no regrets.
I have learned so much from you and will continue to do so for the years to come. How to forgive, how to love unconditionally not expecting anything in return, how to be innocent, how to enjoy the small things in life, how to be carefree…. The list is endless....
I will always love you. I will always be by your side. I will always be there for you, someone you can count on. i will do whatever I can do to make your life better for as long as their is air in my lungs and my heart still beats.
Thank you Addy! You have made my life worthwhile!
Love u always,
mommy
